It Is Well

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Hello! I'm still alive! Sorry it's been a little silent around here since Thursday. We've been packing, running errands, planning, meeting up with friends for the last time, etc.

We move Wednesday afternoon! Like tomorrow! Eekk! 

We are closing up our time in North Carolina and unless WWIII breaks out, my husband's active service in the Marine Corps comes to a close (officially April 28th--we leave early thanks to terminal leave.) I'm sitting on the ground on a pallet we made with what blankets we didn't use to pack the trailer, next to my husband who's scrolling on his phone, with my laptop on top of a laundry basket that I'll fill with miscellaneous items. It's starting to become real, this whole--end of military life--thing.

We had to load the trailer Monday because Jaime had to get it weighed on base. We are thankful they help pay for the final move home!

Several emotions are running through us both right now. For me: excited, anxious, scared, uncertain, relief. Jaime said: happiness, worried, anxious, grateful, confused. As you can tell, we're both a little lost with what is to come after the military. You get comfy when you know you have paychecks coming twice a month. You don't worry about anything. Spend and save your money how ever you see fit.

I have a job to go back to when we get home. We are so thankful to my boss for holding my position at the Travel Agency. Jaime, however, gets the privilege as a civilian and citizen of America to pursue whatever career path he so chooses. He has his second interview with a company we think very highly of this Friday. (Say a prayer for us, if you think about it, it's at 1 EST) It would be a huge relief for us if this is the job God wanted Jaime to have. It couldn't have come available at a better time. If this isn't the job or direction Jaime should go, now we have more to think about.

Jaime is a great Marine. He would have climbed the ladder faster than most if he would have been a "lifer".  But he wasn't always happy doing what he did in the USMC. He missed being home with our huge families. We missed being together. Whatever he decides to do, I want him to be truly happy. Each and every day, I want him to get up and be excited with his career choice. He's the leader of this household and his happiness matters so much to me.

After this interview Friday, we have several more choices to make. Buy a home. Build a home. Buy land. Live in my parents apartment. Buy a farm. Buy cattle. Start a family. Buy Jaime his own dog. Save for a vacation. The list goes on and on. The possibilities are endless really. It's the fun and scary part of being a young newlywed couple with our whole lives ahead of us. We want it all. We want to do it all. Life can be so overwhelming. That's where God plays a huge role in my life as well as my husbands. There's too much to think about. I have to just give it all to God and let him handle it. It's so much easier on me and my mind.

I kind of just wanted to pour my heart out in my little corner of the world. It feels good to get it out there. All these changes coming has my mind racing in a thousand different directions. God hears and He knows it all. He wants to take my burdens and stress away, I just have to stop and let Him. Although we may not know how this week will end or how this year will, "even still, It is well."

If your curious where that quote comes from, it's a hymn by Phillip Bliss. I encourage you to read his story that lead up to this beautiful song. I've cried many times while singing this song. Only God can bring you the peace your soul needs to get through rough or trying times. I'll end the post with this song.

I'll be busy and running around this week and I apologize for my absence. Hopefully I can back on track and on a better schedule next week! We would appreciate your prayers for traveling mercies too! Thanks for bearing with me!

When peace like a river, attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou hast taught me to know,^a
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

Refrain:
It is well, (it is well),
With my soul, (with my soul)
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

Though Satan should buffet, though trials should come,
Let this blest assurance control,
That Christ has regarded my helpless estate,
And hath shed His own blood for my soul.

My sin, oh, the bliss of this glorious thought!
My sin, not in part but the whole,
Is nailed to the cross, and I bear it no more,
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!

For me, be it Christ, be it Christ hence to live:
If Jordan above me shall roll,
No pang shall be mine, for in death as in life,
Thou wilt whisper Thy peace to my soul.

But Lord, 'tis for Thee, for Thy coming we wait,
The sky, not the grave, is our goal;
Oh, trump of the angel! Oh, voice of the Lord!
Blessed hope, blessed rest of my soul.

And Lord, haste the day when my faith shall be sight,
The clouds be rolled back as a scroll;
The trump shall resound, and the Lord shall descend,
A song in the night, oh my soul! 

I just love that song. So so good.